"C.S. Lewis Song"
If I find in myself desires nothing in this world can satisfy, I can only conclude that I was not made for here. If the flesh that I fight is at best only light and momentary, then of course I'll feel nude when to where I'm destined I'm compared.
[CHORUS:] Speak to me in the light of the dawn, Mercy comes with the morning. I will sigh and with all creation groan as I wait for hope to come for me.
Am I lost or just less found? On the straight or on the roundabout of the wrong way? is this a soul that stirs in me, is it breaking free, wanting to come alive? Cos my comfort would prefer for me to be numb, And avoid the impending birth of who I was born to become.
[BRIDGE:] For we, we are not long here. Our time is but a breath, so we better breathe it. And I, I was made to live, I was made to love, I was made to know you. Hope is coming for me. Hope, He's coming...
This songs gives me chills and makes me so excited about the promise that Jesus gives us that He is COMING! And He is our HOPE!
I need this reminder constantly, especially after a weekend like this! You may already know, but again, I thought we were going to lose Samuel on Saturday. He had a great week last week and we are so grateful! He was himself, happy, not throwing up much at all and enjoying life. We even made a pitstop at Chick E Cheese on our way to the pulminologist! After not going anywhere for weeks, it seems, except to the Dr., it was good to get out for a few minutes while he was doing a little better!
Anyway, Saturday he was tired and feel asleep in his beanbag and he started coughing and within seconds, was in respiratory distress, fast heartrate, low oxygen and fever! After doing breathing treatments with o2, medication and lots of suction he still was not doing better. He usually responds after all of this and starts calming down, but after 2 hours he still needed oxygen and his respirations were too fast. I decided to alert the family and a few friends to pray. Within 10 minutes he was calming down! Wow! They power of prayer! He did struggle several times off & on and I have been constantly checking his sats and doing treatments and medication, but tonight he seems to be about normal! Praise the Lord in all things, but I am so thankful for more time with my boy! He, of course, is weak and today was not well at all, but at least he isn't struggling to breath and suffering.
After a weekend like this...with Samuel struggling so much, Tim still in much pain from his wreck and coming down with a respiratory infection, the house out of sorts because we are converting the garage into a school + therapy room and the old school room into a room for Micah, we needed some relief!
It doesn't mean things are easier, but a few hours to sit and reflect and be thankful for today is what I need right now.
Speaking of today, we had an amazing surprise come to our house! We celebrated everyones birthday...today...how many days they were, to be exact! My sweet friend Heather called and asked if they could come and visit Samuel and said she was bringing lunch. When they arrived she had printed out how many days old each child was today (she said ours was depressing and we didn't need that). She brought balloons, chicken nuggets for the kids, quesadillas for us moms and angry birds cupcakes! It was wonderful! Samuel was very tired and not himself, but a little while with his best buddie Knox, and he perked up a little.:-) I am thankful for time with friends & celebrating our days...as the songs says ” our time is but a breath, so we better breathe it”.
Mercy did come today, and I am thankful. I am also thankful for all who have prayed and are praying for our family, we do need it desperately right now. Your prayers, encouragement, meals and love have given us great encouragement! I am thankful for my Father, who has given me great hope!
2 Corinthians 4:16-18 NASB
”Therefore we do not lose heart, but though our outer man is decaying, yet our inner man is being renewed day by day. For momentary, light affliction is producing for us an eternal weight of glory far beyond all comparison, while we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen; for the things which are seen are temporal, but the things which are not seen are eternal.”
C..S. Lewis song...enjoy!