My sweet friend from church reminded me of this song and asked me to sing it with her when I was ready. Today I went back to praise team. It was so good to sing out and worship, but it was hard, too. I want this to be my family's theme song right now. I pray that we will honor Him who created us in all things, especially when it is hard. ”All of my life, in every season, YOU are still God, I have a reason to sing, I have a reason to worship!” I also, love the part that says, ” refine me Lord through the flames”. Suffering is hard, pain is so very hard, loss is unbearable. I want, with all of my being, to run my hands through those beautiful curls, look into those bright blue eyes and kiss those sweet lips. I think all of our family had a hard day today, missing him. Today, the 10th marks one month since we held him last. The Lord is using Samuel in so many ways still, and for that I am so very grateful! I have heard of salvation through God using Samuels life on this blog and healing in several hearts. Our beautiful boy's life will continue to bless others, I pray.
This pain is more than we can bear, at times. God NEVER promises that He will not give us more than we can bear. (most people get confused with 1 Cor. 10:13 ...says He will not allow you to be tempted beyond what your are able). Losing a child is beyond what anyone can bear. Some days we just want to stay in bed, some days I want to sit and stare and everyday I am edgy, sensitive, tired, dizzy and weepy. I want to be the wife and mother that God wants me to be, but it is hard. Tim is so precious to me, but if he looks at me funny, I might fall apart. We are all struggling, but I have faith that He will carry us. He does give us His strength and carries us. Job was taken through great loss and trials, but he remained faithful and the Lord was honored. May we all cling to our Father and thank Him for our trials. May He ”refine us all through the flame”.
”This is my prayer in the desert. And all that's within me feels dry. This is my prayer in the hunger in me, My God is a God who provides.
And this is my prayer in the fire. In weakness or trial or pain. There is a faith proved Of more worth than gold, So refine me Lord through the flames.
[Chorus:] And I will bring praise, I will bring praise, No weapon forged against me shall remain.
I will rejoice, I will declare, God is my victory and He is here.
And this is my prayer in the battle, And triumph is still on it's way. I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ, So firm on His promise I'll stand.
[Bridge:] All of my life In every season, You are still God, I have a reason to sing, I have a reason to worship!
This is my prayer in the harvest, When favor and providence flow. I know I'm filled to be empited again, The seed I've recieved I will sow.”
Picture is last year at this time <3