Friday, July 22, 2016

To truly abide and adore Him

I'm pressed to begin sharing again what God is teaching me and about life. He is filling my heart and soul with His presence and care, even though I struggle daily!  I have been recovering from surgery and so I have been dependent on the Lord and my loved ones to care for me.  The Lord uses every circumstance in our lives to teach and strengthen us... if we listen and respond. It is so hard to constantly be shaped and molded, but if we had no struggles then would we need Him?
  I used to think that if I worked really hard to reach the goal of something (like being patient) that the trial to strengthen me would be over. Well...that's not how it works. I will never be perfectly patient or perfect in anything, hence my need for constant care from the Father to teach me. 
I just read some of my favorite biographies. Elisabeth Elliot, is one of my heroines.  Her husband went to the Auca Indians in Ecuador as a missionary and friend and they murdered him and several of his dear missionary friends. She forgave them and later took their daughter and lived among these same people to continue her husbands work of spreading the gospel!  Can you imagine??  Forgiving and then going back with your little girl and living among the people who murdered your precious husband.
"I realized that the deepest spiritual lessons are not learned by His letting us have our way in the end, but by His making us wait, bearing with us in love and patience until we are able to honestly to pray what He taught His disciples to pray: Thy will be done.”
Elisabeth Elliot, Passion and Purity: Learning to Bring Your Love Life Under Christ's Control    
Then I read about Susanna Wesley and how she birthed 19 children, but 9 of her precious babies did not live past infancy. She then struggled with a difficult marriage, her home burning twice, persecution from the town, imprisonment in her older age (for her deceased husbands unpaid debts), much hardships with her adult children's lives and other constant struggles. BUT, she continued to be faithful to her Lord, teaching her children diligently and leading others to Christ her entire life.  Her legacy lives on in her sons work. Charles wrote many hymns that we love and sing still like,"Hark! The Herald Angels Sing" and Christ the Lord is Risen today" and 6,000 other hymns! Her son John is the is credited with the foundation of Methodism.
I finished today re-reading about Corrie Ten Boom.  She was angry and did not want to forgive the persecutors from WW2, the years and years of persecution they endured and the loss of her dear sister and father through it all. But in her old age she was face to face with one of the officers who had persecute her in the concentration camp.  He asked for her forgiveness and it took all of her strength as she remembered that "forgiveness is an act of will- not an emotion". As she reached out her hand to shake his, she said an incredible thing took place. "The current started in my shoulder, raced down my arm, sprang into our joined hands. And then this healing warmth seemed to flood my whole being, bringing tears to my eyes. 'I forgive you brother!, I cried. 'With all my heart!'" "I had never known God's love so intensely as I did them. But even so, I realized it was not my love. I had tried, and did not have the power. It was the power of the Holy Spirit!"
If these precious saints can press on well,
then so can you and I. 
The Lord was faithful and now they are all in eternal glory! 
 I'm clinging to Him and His promise that His love will never let me go. I John 4:12-13, "If we love one another, God abides in us and His love is perfected in us, because He has given us of His Spirit. By this we know that we abide in Him and He in us because He has given us of His Spirit."
Isn't it Amazing that He has given us His Spirit and helps us!  If we constantly remember that and seek to glorify Him,
then we will have the strength to persevere! 
Life is truly difficult...some days are easier than others full of grief, depression, anger, insecurities, pain and the list goes on.
  Let's press on to Abide in Him and to Adore Him when life is heavy and when life is sweet.

“O my Lord, in Thine arms I am safe; keep me,

and I have nothing to fear; give me up, and I have
nothing to hope for. I know nothing about the
future, but I rely upon Thee. I pray Thee to give
me what is good for me; I pray Thee to take from
me whatever may imperil my salvation. I leave it
all to Thee, because Thou knowest and I do not. If
Thou bringest pain or sorrow on me, give me grace
to bear it well, keep me from fretfulness and selfishness.
If Thou givest me health and strength and
success in this world, keep me ever on my guard
lest these great gifts carry me away from Thee.
Give me to know thee, to believe on Thee, to love
Thee, to serve Thee, to live to and for Thee. Give
me to die just at that time and in that way which
is most for Thy glory. Amen."
John Henry Newman
Here is a beautiful song to encourage you in your walk!  
Abide with me

Abiding and Adoring,  Mary Elisabeth

Thursday, September 10, 2015

3 years

    Today is the 3rd anniversary of Samuel's heaven going. Losing your child is the most incredible pain, but I would never make it a day without knowing that he is in heaven with the Father and has no more sadness, sickness or pain.  What a gift to know that he is healed and whole and enjoying life far more than we can even comprehend. If you ever wonder about heaven, you should read Heaven by Randy Alcorn. What a wonderful picture and incredible comfort it provided for me.  How can I imagine not having my beautiful, precious child with me ...ever again? Only through God's grace and the comfort that knowing I will see my boy again allows me to continue and to live my life to the best of my ability and pray I can minister to others of His love and salvation. What a gift to know that we will be together again, one day! 
     It still doesn't mean that I don't miss him terribly!  That my heart literally is in pain because I miss him and can't believe the things we have been trying everything to help him and nothing works, not even oxygen. Like holding him and singing over his little body while our tears bathed him while Tim and I watched him take his last breaths. Or having to tell our precious children and family and friends that he took his last breaths.  Or carrying his frail body to the car that came to take him to the funeral home and watching it leave, thinking, "what am I doing putting him in a car with a stranger and not helping and holding him?"  Or feeling so empty and the house was being terribly quiet.
    3 Years later, I can say that the pain isn't as fresh daily, but it is there. Losing your child is losing part of you. It is not comprehendible  Only through the salvation and comfort from the Lord can we go on.
     Psalm 23 is special to us because we said it every night with Samuel.  It brought him and us comfort and we said it to him as he left us and entered glory. As I have been reflecting, I was inspired to write how Psalm 23 I working in my life.
Lord You are my Shepherd, my guide and Father.  I pray that I will not be in want, but find complete satisfaction in You.  You take me through green pasture~ beauty that you have created and supplied for my every need. You give me rest and give me comfort through your grace.
     You lead me beside the still waters~ peace for my soul. You guide me. You restore my soul.  You lead me in the path of righteousness~ Your Word has supplied me with the guide on pleasing and honoring You.    In Your Name.
     Even though I have walked through the valley of the shadow of death with precious Samuel,  I will fear no evil, only brokenness and longing for heaven and healing. Thank You for being with me.
Your rod and staff, they comfort me~ when the perils of life are overtaking me, You recue me.  You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies ~ because I need no enemies or fear with You on my side.  You anoint my head with oil~ this is the honor that You have chosen overflows~ I am full in You. 

 You provide, protect and fill me. 
      Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life because I can rest in You.  And I will, one day, dwell in Your house and be in my eternal home FOREVER!  ~Amen





Saturday, May 17, 2014

Finding Joy in the Clouds

Ever Since Samuel went to heaven,  I look at the clouds with new wonder and amazement.  Each day as I look up, I am given new designs and colors.  Some days seem the same,  but each has its own beauty.  The Lord gives us this gift each day and His Glory shines through! The sky also gives such comfort as we look forward to heaven!  When I stop and look up I am given a small glimpse of the beauty awaiting us in heaven and I can only imagine how wonderful it is for Samuel and those who are already there.  Thank you Lord for the beauty of each day.  I love this article below and I wonder if you will take the time to stop and drink in His glory. 
"The heavens declare the Glory of God; the skies proclaim the work of His hands. " Psalm 19:1

Sunday, April 13, 2014

Palm Sunday celebration 2014

This year the Lord put it on my heart to start a children and youth choir for Palm Sunday and Easter! It was a sweet time of worship each week and brought me so much joy! We had 2 choirs,  the "cherub choir" and the children/youth choir.  What a celebration it was as they sang to the Lord on these 2 special Sunday's!!! I am thankful to have video links below.

Psalm Sunday:

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Easter Sunday:

Monday, March 10, 2014

A year and a half without him

On this day a year and a half ago, on the 10th (also on a Monday), my Samuel went to heaven.  The sky was beautiful and the clouds were full, just like today.  As I try to think of what it was like on that day for Samuel, leaving such pain and weakness and suddenly being healed and in Glory, I am comforted.  This last year and a half without him has been unfathomable. To always feel that something is missing, the empty chair, the hole in our hearts is constant. I'm thankful that with time the pain isn't as sharp, but it will forever be there. 
I wanted a new arrangement for him as spring is coming and this day and Gracie wanted to make it this time.  I was so proud of the beautiful arrangement she made.   
How can I fathom living without  my little boy? How can we go on?  

Only through God's grace!
Some days are good, some are terrible, most have pain..
 but the Lord has continued to fill us with His comfort and peace.
  He has continued through His word to bring us messages of hope.
 Why must we go through this pain and suffering?
The answers are not all known, but I do know that God has taught much through Samuel's sweet life and death and I pray He will continue to mold our hearts to bring Him glory.
"When facing grief Christians must learn to direct their minds and hearts to the various forms of comfort and hope that their faith offers them.  Paul directs a group of bereaved believers to not 'grieve like the rest of men, who have no hope.' (I Thess. 4:13)  and 'We do not lose heart...for our light and momentary troubles are achieving an eternal glory that far outweighs them all.  So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen'. (2 Cor. 2:16-18)". Timothy Keller,  Walking with God through Pain and Suffering 
 I am thankful that God gives us great hope and comfort even though we are in great pain and suffering.
Looking Heavenward!!!

Sunday, January 12, 2014

In Christ Alone

~In Christ alone my hope is found

 He is my light, my strength, my song

 This Cornerstone, this solid ground

 Firm through the fiercest drought and storm
What heights of love, what depths of peace

 When fears are stilled, when strivings cease

 My Comforter, my All in All

 Here in the love of Christ I stand.
~In Christ alone, who took on flesh

 Fullness of God in helpless Babe

 This gift of love and righteousness

 Scorned by the ones He  came to save
Til on that cross as Jesus died

 The wrath of God was satisfied

 For every sin on Him was laid

 Here in the death of Christ I live.
~There in the ground His body lay

 Light of the world by darkness slain

 Then bursting forth in glorious Day

 Up from the grave He rose again
And as He stands in victory

 Sins curse has lost its grip on me

 For I am His and He is mine

 Bought with the precious blood of Christ.
~No guilt in life, no fear in death

 This is the power of Christ in me

 From a lifes first cry to final breath

 Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell, no scheme of man

 Could ever pluck me from His hand

 Til He returns or calls me home

 Here in the power of Christ I stand.
I had the privilege of helping to lead worship at church today and as we were singing this beautiful song I was, again moved to amazement and tears.  I love to worship and sing and am renewed daily by the Lord through His Word, His creation and worshipping Him with a full heart. 
He is our HOPE...
when this world seems too hard.
Firm through the Fiercest drought and storm...
when all seems hopeless.
Every sin on Him was laid,
and because of Christ and His death,
I can have no guilt in life,
and He has given me no Fear in death
this is the power of Christ in me.
Nothing can pluck me from HIS hand.
Til He returns or calls me home,
here in the power of Christ
I hold tight to His promises and rest in HIM.

Wednesday, January 1, 2014


The Lord has brought us through another year and we have said goodbye to 2013. 
This stirs up many emotions for me...knowing that Samuel was not with us all through 2013 is very difficult for me to comprehend.  He is such a part of our lives and the Lord continues to bless us and others because of Samuel and I am thankful, but I miss him.  I was looking through some old pictures and came across a precious memory.  In December 2011 my sister and I led a Christmas Children's choir at our church.  It was so sweet to hear the children worshipping the Lord!  Samuel was so excited and loved to worship, but he would have been agitated to stay on stage for the entire performance. We wanted him to be able to be a part of it, so before we sang the last song, Tim carried Samuel's wheelchair up the steps.    As the children sang the last song of "JOY to the world" we all had tears in our eyes.  What a precious moment for my boy who could not walk or talk to show us all true worship.  His joy in the Lord, his contentedness in the midst of suffering and the "works of God being displayed in his life" John 9:1, were just a few ways he worshipped.
He is now worshipping in the splendor and glory with the Most High! 
This song is Samuel's song and constantly allows us to picture him
standing in Glory and worshipping.
John 4:23-24
23" But an hour is coming, and now is, when the true worshipers will worship the Father in spirit and truth; for such people the Father seeks to be His worshipers. 24 God is [a]spirit, and those who worship Him must worship in spirit and truth.”

Samuel is on the far left :)

I was working on my Bible Study and we were studying worship. I loved this explanation of worship!
'Worship is casting our perspective beyond what is immediate to that which is eternal. The psalmist was dismayed at the apparent injustices he saw around him until he entered the temple and his eyes were cast high to an eternal perspective and remembered that God would set all things straight eventually. (Psalm 73:16)".  (from More Grace more Love by George Robertson
 and Mary Beth McGreevy) 
Thinking eternally is true worship.
My word for this year is worship
 When I wake up in the morning I want to pray to the Lord,
 "what can I do to serve You today?" 
 This is an act of worship. 
 I want to thank the Lord throughout my day for His blessings,
 this is an act of worship. 
I want to have His praises upon my lips,
I want to have the Joy of the Lord in all I do and say.
I want to sing with joy to the Lord.
I want to pray without ceasing.
I want to give unconditionally.
I want to serve.
I want to encourage .
I want to tell others about Jesus and His love.
I want to rest in the hope of eternity and knowing that His strength is perfect
 when our strength is gone. 
 And one day all of the hardship of this life will make perfect sense!
  Isn't that wonderful news?! 
Thinking eternally gives my great joy!
Romans 8:18-25
18" I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. 19 For the creation waits in eager expectation for the children of God to be revealed. 20 For the creation was subjected to frustration, not by its own choice, but by the will of the one who subjected it, in hope 21 that  the creation itself will be liberated from its bondage to decay and brought into the freedom and glory of the children of God.
22 We know that the whole creation has been groaning as in the pains of childbirth right up to the present time. 23 Not only so, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for our adoption to sonship, the redemption of our bodies. 24 For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what they already have? 25 But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently"

"Worship is simply glorifying God;
 this means there is nothing required of us that cannot be done as an act of worship."
    Author: John MacArthur
    Source: The Glory of Heaven

Praying to have true worship for my Lord and Savior in all things this year!
May you be blessed this year!
 I love this song
I surrender by Hillsong and hope it brings encouragement as we worship the Lord!