Monday, December 31, 2012

New year 2013

This year end is different. 2012 was the hardest, most painful year of my life. Watching Samuel struggle and in pain and losing him was more than I could bear.  My mind can't even fathom that he is really gone, its too much.
 We miss his sweet smile,
giggles with Daddy,
brothers and sisters,
having fun,
 his playful eyes,
, his curls,
 his kisses
our family togetherness,
and so much more.
 Pictures comfort and bring sadness. He taught so many people so much and brought to our family joy that is indescribable. He had special needs and with his absence I miss that beautiful special world. I don't want him to be suffering, but I selfishly want my little boy here. 
As we face this new year without our little boy, I pray that the Lord will continue to use Samuel's life to influence and Teach. I also pray He will continue to bring comfort and Hope to those in pain.
I can't wait for the day when beauty will rise! I'm thankful today for the Hope that one day all of our pain will be gone and we will be whole again.
”Out of these ashes... beauty will rise and we will dance among the ruins We will see Him with our own eyes Out of these ashes... beauty will rise For we know, joy is coming in the morning... in the morning...”
I wanted to share some treasured memories of this year.  Thankful for each day that we were blessed with Samuel and storing these moments in my heart forever.

A sunset he painted for us after his heaven going.


Alisa Lamb said...

Pictures do bring comfort and sadness. I spent some time earlier tonight looking at some of my pics of you all and sweet Samuel. I am thankful for the time I got to have with him, for the privilege of knowing him, for all that I've learned about life and love through his Mommy, and for the joy that he brought to my life. I KNOW his life will continue to impact so many in this new year. Trusting that God will continue to give you the comfort that only He can give. Love u dearly, friend.

Jessica said...

I know our boys are running and laughing and charming everyone they meet. I'm sure they are looking down and telling stories of their awesome families. I can't wait for us all to be together again!!

Anonymous said...

It is a new year with new beginnings! No matter how many new years we have Samuel will be missed but we have a hope in seeing him again very soon! This word is not for us!!! I love you and look forward to what the Lord has for us this year. Just remember, Samuel is PERFECT AND WHOLE NOW! Susannah