Monday, March 10, 2014
A year and a half without him
On this day a year and a half ago, on the 10th (also on a Monday), my Samuel went to heaven. The sky was beautiful and the clouds were full, just like today. As I try to think of what it was like on that day for Samuel, leaving such pain and weakness and suddenly being healed and in Glory, I am comforted. This last year and a half without him has been unfathomable. To always feel that something is missing, the empty chair, the hole in our hearts is constant. I'm thankful that with time the pain isn't as sharp, but it will forever be there.
I wanted a new arrangement for him as spring is coming and this day and Gracie wanted to make it this time. I was so proud of the beautiful arrangement she made.
How can I fathom living without my little boy? How can we go on?
Only through God's grace!
Some days are good, some are terrible, most have pain..
but the Lord has continued to fill us with His comfort and peace.
He has continued through His word to bring us messages of hope.
Why must we go through this pain and suffering?
The answers are not all known, but I do know that God has taught much through Samuel's sweet life and death and I pray He will continue to mold our hearts to bring Him glory.
"When facing grief Christians must learn to direct their minds and hearts to the various forms of comfort and hope that their faith offers them. Paul directs a group of bereaved believers to not 'grieve like the rest of men, who have no hope.' (I Thess. 4:13) and 'We do not lose heart...for our light and momentary troubles are achieving an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen'. (2 Cor. 2:16-18)". Timothy Keller, Walking with God through Pain and Suffering
I am thankful that God gives us great hope and comfort even though we are in great pain and suffering.