Monday, November 4, 2013



"You don't always have to brave"  is what my precious friend reminded me this past week when I told her that I realized I have gotten good at suppressing my emotions.  I want to cry and need to often, but I have allowed myself to keep it in.  I am afraid I will completely fall apart if I allow myself to.  After spending time in the Word and prayer on Friday I prayed about this.  I asked the Lord to allow me to not be afraid and let it go when I needed to.  Well then I started at home...and then I was on the way to hear Steven Curtis Chapman and Laura Story in concert and cried with Alisa most of the way there (2 hours)  listening to their new cd's.  They are wonderful and kept encouraging me with their stories and music.  I love concerts and hearing more about each song and why they were written and cried some more there.  Then at church I cried a little more and today the children and I were having devotions and talking about Samuel and the things the Lord was teaching us made me start up again.  I'm not saying I want to be a mushy mess, but I do need to cry and I do need to know that it's ok to be, He created us to be!  I also need to lean on the Father and His strength.  He wants us to need His, He wants us to rely on Him.


 I keep trying to be brave and strong and I know I don't have to and can't... I need to let it (my emotions) go and lean on His healing.

Here are the lyrics from the song my friend sent me, from Laura Story's album.

"I can just be me"

"I've been doing all that I can
To hold it all together
Piece by piece....
I've been feeling like a failure,
Trying to be braver
Than I could ever be.

So be my healer, be my comfort, be my peace.
Cause I can be broken, I can be needy,
Lord I need You now to be,
Be my God, so I can just be me."

Psalm 91
"He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High
Will abide in the shadow of the Almighty.
I will say to the Lord, “My refuge and my fortress,
My God, in whom I trust!”
For it is He who delivers you from the snare of the trapper
And from the deadly pestilence.
He will cover you with His pinions,
And under His wings you may seek refuge;
His faithfulness is a shield and bulwark.

You will not be afraid of the terror by night,
Or of the arrow that flies by day;
Of the pestilence that stalks in darkness,
Or of the destruction that lays waste at noon.
A thousand may fall at your side
And ten thousand at your right hand,
But it shall not approach you.
You will only look on with your eyes
And see the recompense of the wicked.
For you have made the Lord, my refuge,
Even the Most High, your dwelling place.
10 No evil will befall you,
Nor will any plague come near your tent.
11 For He will give His angels charge concerning you,
To guard you in all your ways.
12 They will bear you up in their hands,
That you do not strike your foot against a stone.
13 You will tread upon the lion and cobra,
The young lion and the serpent you will trample down.
14 Because he has loved Me, therefore I will deliver him;
I will set him securely on high, because he has known My name.
15 “He will call upon Me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble;
I will rescue him and honor him."

Laura Story's song:

1 comment:

Alisa said...

You are one of the bravest I know. I'm glad I've had the privilege of laughing and crying with you for many years. Love u.